Honestly...

I stole this from my cousin Rachel's blog (you are far more in depth than I will be Rach... I'm too lazy for that kind of digging haha).

It is called the honest scrap award and these are the rules...

A) First list 10 honest things about yourself--and make it interesting even if you have to dig deep.
B) Pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of Honest Scrap...


#1 I am a slob... I really only clean when I know someone is coming over to my house. People come over and they always say how lovely our house is but really, I am just a big, fat faker. I am not clean and tidy... I wish I was. Try coming over some time without me knowing, then you will see the real me.

#2 This kind of goes along with #1. I really like to be lazy. If I have a day off work and school, I should use that to do productive things and sometimes I do, but other times, I am flat out lazy. I could lounge around my house watching TV and eating junk all day... dare to dream.

#3 I am way too self indulgent. I am always thinking what other people are thinking about me. (what is everyone gonna think about me for posting this???) It's a bit pathetic I think. I cant stand for people to look down on me or be dissappointed in me or anything like that and so I will do just about anything to avoid that, even if I do something I think is wrong or that I just dont want to do. Why cant I just let it go?? I'm a bit spineless.

#4 When I see a pregnant person, at first I get really happy and I love to see their cute belly, but after a minute I think my face literally starts to turn green because I get so jealous. I'm still happy to see them, and I love the cute pregnant girls, but I envy you...

#5 I can be a really good liar (huh mom?). But I try to limit my lies to the ones that are for the greater good, such as hiding a surprise. I like that. Likewise, I like to be surprised.

#6 I think I spoil my hubby rotten... it's just so fun to see him smile and be happy and surprised and so I keep doing it! I may have created a monster though... oh well. Love you babe.

#7 I think I am spoiled rotten... perhaps thats why #6 happens? Family, friends, co-workers, all these people spoil me. Why? Why do you all do that? You are making me rotten I think.

#8 I dont think I could live without Faith. I love knowing that there is a plan for my life whether I can see it or understand it or not. It's something that ALWAYS helps me when I'm down. When I just remember that in one way or another, there is a purpose to everything, it helps me to just accept things that are hard and be grateful for the things that are not. The good in my life outweighs the bad about 11.6 million times. That makes me happy. I'm a lucky girl.

#9 I cry almost everytime I watch Extreme Home Makeover (you do it too Sharla... dont judge :) Seriously, I am a big bawl baby. Shows like that make me cry almost every time. It's so dumb. I even shed a little tear when I watched the Hills trailor for this season when Heidi and Lauren hug and make up... pathetic. I dont cry much when I am hurt or sad, but when its something really happy I cry.

#10 I dont even know what else there is... I dont think I am that deep. Although my english professor at Utah State once told me I was "As deep as the ocean". He was a looney.

I am not gonna pick 10 people cuz I want ALL of you to do it. I love reading stuff like this about other people so get crackin!

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More to come on this cute mamma to be...

Thanks for the fun photoshoot girls! I will get editing asap!

One of the best things

have ever done!

Haha, funny Tracy, get it... eye (I).
ok sorry.

Anyway, I did have LASIK last week and I think it is one of the greatest things I have ever done! I had no idea how much of the world I was missing out on. I can see so so well! It was a 5 minute procedure and its gonna change my life! Seems like every day I see something new and I just have to stop and stare. Awesome. Love it.

Thank you Jon for talking me into it and letting me spend our tax return! :)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

Tracy,

It is hard to believe that we have been married for FOUR whole years now. Sometimes it feels like it has gone by so quickly then as I look back I see all that we have done; I see all the times we have shared, the goals accomplished, and how our love has grown and I wonder how four years was enough. In my own special way I wanted to let you know how much I love you, while at the same time remind you of some of those special moments we have shared together.

Your eyes, your face, your beautiful smile, Hot little tennis skirts, bonfires at devils canyon.

Two years, and six weeks... a long time, without many letters.

I just couldn't live without you, i had to make you mine..

Cute little children, lots of roses, I wouldn't have it any other way. Down one knee, on a bench much like this, our bench, I held your hand in mine, you had no idea. Lots of smiles, lots of tears, hugs and kisses, shiny ring, and some crazy guy with a video camera.

It came, the day long awaited. Families gathered in holy places, hands clasped across the altar, eyes locked, eternal reflections danced in the background, covenants were made.

Bound the Lord it cannot fail, marriage like ours it will not!

New place, new city, mold, basements, depressing, snow, davids bridal.

New house, new friends, new job, not so bad this new city, snowboarding, rock climbing, bear lake, canoeing. quick trips St. George, Lake Powell, New york, Boston.

The dungeon the bunker, first year, architecture. Long hours, good morning, good night, will I see you this week, at church... alright.

Your so patient.. it will be over soon.

Smiles, laughter, no reason why, nubby tickles, cuddles, time.

vacations, like honeymoons, clear water, soft sand. Hawaii is nice, the second time too... no place like rainbow cafe.

I love you so much Tracy! You have made me happy that I married you every day for four years. I love the time we spend together, the smiles, the laughter. I try so hard to make you happy and hope that you are as much in love with me as I am with you. I am so very grateful that you have been so patient with the crazy things that life throws our way, especially as of late. I Love you so much and hope you'll stay with me for many more anniversaries to come.

Love,

Jon

SERIOUSLY???

Yesterday when I woke up I saw sunshine.... blue sky, I heard birds chirping, my flowers were blooming. It was beautiful.



Dear Winter,

Did you not get the memo about your turn being OVER? Seriously???! You are killing my flowers and making me cranky. Please leave.

Tracy

Home...

I want to be here.... now.

I want to see these... now

And these...

Come on Friday...

I am so impatient...

:)

Where have they been???

Have the Layne's disappeared forever? Nope, we're still here. I know I have not blogged much lately and have been "sick" a lot so we have not been around much.

So here's the deal. I have debated whether to post this or not. Since I have decided to go ahead please note that this is NOT a plea for pity or anything pathetic like that. I simply want my friends and family informed so you dont ask me a question that I am not ready for and I burst into tears and we both feel crappy... now that I have it out there though I will be ready for it!

Some of you know and some dont that Jon and I have been trying to get pregnant for a couple of years and we have recently gone through a very complex form of InVitro and genetic testing, to try to get our little one... this requires a lot of time at the doctors office, having to be home early every night to do shots and several "sick" days. So on Feb. 10th the phone call that we have been waiting and waiting for finally came and unfortunately the news was not what we were hoping for. The test was positive, I was pregnant, but barely. My hormoes were very low (17... supposed to be over 100) and they said this was likely a miscarriage but possibly just a low level. They waited 2 more days to repeat the test and as we expected, we miscarried.

Yes we are very sad. It's a hard thing to go through all that and not get what you wanted so desperately, but we are not done... we will try again eventually. We are doing better now. We are VERY grateful for everyone that supported us, prayed for us, fasted for us and were just hoping for us. That is a big positive that we got out of this. We see how very lucky we are to have such great people in our lives. We really feel very blessed.

Now, please dont be scared of me girls... dont be scared to tell me you are pregnant or talk about your kids for fear of hurting my feelings. It makes me really happy to see and hear about the cuteness around me.

Ok, I feel better now... again, this is NOT for sympathy (I'm a little paranoid about everyone thinking that) but now that it's out there I am not so worried about being caught off guard and I will be ready to talk. Thanks again everyone for all your support and love, it was very much felt and very much appreciated.



P.S. fun, distracting activities are like morphine for me right now so if anyone is doing anything fun please fill me in!