Today I watched Oliver's video. I cried. I cried in a way I have never cried before. Nothing special happened today, but today something is hitting me so hard... I am the luckiest. I look at his perfect little face everyday, and I can't believe that each time I do, I really love him more and more. Sometimes it's so much that I literally feel like my heart will burst. Why have I been so blessed? Why was I chosen by 2 good people to care for this perfect little soul? Why?
It's ironic for me to be asking these questions because just a few short months ago I was asking just about the same thing only in reverse... Why can't I have my baby? Where is he? Why didn't our IVF work? Why?
This is why
It's so funny how much sense everything makes now. He is the reason why. He is my son, and today I cried tears of Joy and gratitude that The Lord knew what he was doing when Jon and I were struggling to start our family. He knew the answer to all of my "Why's"... I was just too impatient to find out. Now I have an unshakable faith that there is a plan for us, whether we like the path or not, it will get us where we need to be. I would not trade my path for anything in the world, without it, I wouldn't have my son.
Oliver's video is played to this song, "The Luckiest". Jon and I's wedding song that once again, now makes so much sense.
I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
16 comments:
I don't know what to say other than I want to be as strong as you.
That is beautiful Tracy! I am so proud to know you and I can only wish I had unshakeable faith as you do!
You are such an amazing person.
I love it when you are able to see things come full circle, especially when you have put in the faith and prayers the way you did. I couldn't possibly be happier for you, you are an amazing and selfless mother. I still get choked up when I see this picture of you and Oliver.
I'm just so so so happy for you! I was on the phone with my mom on Sunday and I directed her to your blog video of when you got Oliver and she started bawling watching it too!
P.S. She also said, "Tracy is gorgeous!"
I still can't look at that picture without crying! And Ariel is right-you are amazing person and I am blessed to know you!
You are the best mommy! We love you so much! I can't wait to see that little Oliver again.
I don't know if you remember me, but we used to be in the same ward. I stumbled upon your blog, after hearing from someone that you had just adopted. I often check it, because it gives me strength and hope that someday my time will come too! I am so grateful for adoption and how it has blessed so many people I know, and I agree that you are the luckiest and you should enjoy every minute of it. Congratulations and the video was beautiful.
oh crap, Tracy! Now I'm bawling all over again! But I must beg to differ my dear....because I am, I am, I am...the luckiest! What a blessing my children and grandchildren are to me! Can't wait to see you! Only 3 more sleeps! :)
You are amazing! You brought me to tears reading this. It goes to show there is always a plan. I am so grateful for you to remind me of that! Love you!
That picture makes me cry dear friend. you are the luckiest!
SUCH a beautiful baby. I'm so happy for you guys - you deserve it and he deserves you guys.
Ahhh, I cry everytime I see that picture and the video. I am so happy for you Tracy! You ARE an amazing person and I am so lucky to be your friend. Love you!
Your experience is amazing, and it makes me want to be a stronger person like you. Baby Oliver is beautiful - and I think we all feel just how meant for you and Jon he is! Thank you for reminding me just how much we are blessed by Father in Heaven. Isn't is beautiful to know that the Priesthood is stronger than blood? How thankful I am for that! He will forever be yours. And you are an incredibly beautiful and passionate mother. Thank you for your example.
Why??? Because you two are amazing and Oliver needed you in his life!
CONGRADS TO BOTH YOU, AND YOUR HUSBAND!! I HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING WELL! YOUR SON IS BEAUTIFUL, THEY SURE GROW UP FAST, ASHLEY GIVES ME THE GREATEST JOY, AND WE THINK SHE HAS A SISTER ON THE WAY.. DUE JULY 28TH.. WISH YOU COULD HOP ON A PLANE AND HELP ME DECORATE THE BABY'S ROOM, YOU HAVE GREAT TALENT! I LISTENED TO ONE OF YOUR VIDEOS, GOOD TO HEAR YOUR VOICE!! GOD BLESS & LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU ALL!
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