3 months (warning, picture overload)

This handsome fella, is 3 months old today.

He is so happy...

usually...

but even that pouty little face makes me smile.

and those beautiful blue eyes, never get old.

and we have never been happier

This boy knows just how to charm the socks off of his parents (see picture above). I would do absolutely anything for him. He makes every single day so much fun.

At 3 months Oliver
- is actually wearing 3 month clothes! He's growing so fast.
-is really smiley for mommy and daddy but can be pretty stingy around strangers
-is busy busy busy, always kicking and cooing
-sleeps 3-5 hour stretches at night (usually 3, but he's getting better)
-still fascinated by lights, ceiling fans and blinds
-is comforted best by mommy, but smiles more for daddy
-is absolutely adorable

P.S. I got my camera fixed and I wanna start taking pictures again. I know I am a beginner but that just means I'm cheap :) Let me know if you want some fresh family pictures!

Almost laughs

Oliver is usually pretty stingy with his smiles but today he thought I was being soooo funny when I made clicking noises. We haven't seen a real laugh out of him yet but this was getting pretty close. Doesn't he melt your heart? Or is it just mine?

Why?

Today I watched Oliver's video. I cried. I cried in a way I have never cried before. Nothing special happened today, but today something is hitting me so hard... I am the luckiest. I look at his perfect little face everyday, and I can't believe that each time I do, I really love him more and more. Sometimes it's so much that I literally feel like my heart will burst. Why have I been so blessed? Why was I chosen by 2 good people to care for this perfect little soul? Why?

It's ironic for me to be asking these questions because just a few short months ago I was asking just about the same thing only in reverse... Why can't I have my baby? Where is he? Why didn't our IVF work? Why?

This is why

It's so funny how much sense everything makes now. He is the reason why. He is my son, and today I cried tears of Joy and gratitude that The Lord knew what he was doing when Jon and I were struggling to start our family. He knew the answer to all of my "Why's"... I was just too impatient to find out. Now I have an unshakable faith that there is a plan for us, whether we like the path or not, it will get us where we need to be. I would not trade my path for anything in the world, without it, I wouldn't have my son.

Oliver's video is played to this song, "The Luckiest". Jon and I's wedding song that once again, now makes so much sense.

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest