Mothers Day

What a day.
What a beautiful, wonderful, surreal day.

I had tears in my eyes most of the day.
I had a hard time looking and Oliver without crying.
I found myself just staring and Jon when he was holding or playing with Oliver. In disbelief that it was real.
I remembered Mothers Days past... that were so painful. Gut-wrenching at times.
I remembered being so insanely jealous of the pregnant women around me.
And the women who had 4 kids crawling all over them in church.
I thought about friends that are going through the same struggles I did.
And it made me sad.
I thought about friends that went through the same struggles I did, and succeeded.
And it made me smile.
I thought about my own Mom. And how much of her I have in me.
I wondered if I could ever do as good of a job as she did.
I thought about a lot on Mothers Day.

Mostly I just thought about how I am the luckiest Mommy on earth.
And it was a very... very happy day.

So Proud

Of HIM...

So happy to have him back

And so is HE!

Yesterday was such a long awaited, wonderful day.

Jon-
You have worked so so hard the past 4 years, enduring the sleepless nights, foodless days, and impossible deadlines at the architecture building. I have never seen someone work so hard for free! But it is finally paying off now. You are so good at what you do and I am certain that you will be a success in your field. I can't wait to see what you create!
Me and Oliver are so very proud :)

Congratulations!

Let's go have some fun today!!

Funk

2 posts in 1 evening... weird

I am in a funk. Do you ever feel like you are in a funk?
At first I wasn't sure exactly why. I have the most blessed and wonderful life I can imagine. Nothing I could possibly complain about. But I think I have come up with some reasons for said funkiness.

I am spending too much time blogging and Facebooking
I am not being the best mommy possible to my sweet baby boy
I am not being the best wife to the husband I love so much
I am not taking the very best care of myself
I am not spending any time in the service of others
I am not trying to better myself
I am watching too much TV and not enjoying the simple joys in life
I am not my normal, happy self

Why???

I'm not saying I'm a horrible person. I think I am a pretty descent human being. Not the point here. Maybe I just needed to write it down and put it into space to push me to start working on these things. Yes. I think that's what I needed.

Get the sensation...

I feel like I have been brainwashed by THIS commercial...

I love it. And I have craved them every single day since I first saw the commercial. Clever clever advertising. Mmmmmmm... I think I'll go have one right now.